Today was somewhat uneventful, until about 4:00. Then it got very busy! We started out this morning with the news that we pretty much knew was coming, but had really hoped wouldn't. Matt's liver enzymes went up yet again today. So, he is for sure having the liver biopsy tomorrow. They seem somewhat confident that this procedure will provide some answers, even if we only find out why the enzymes keep going up. There is a slight chance that we still won't know anything, even after the biopsy, but that isn't likely. And, it may not explain everything that has been going on, but we should at least know why his liver is acting up.
Overall, he is feeling OK. A lot of his initial symptoms are starting to either go away or at least become tolerable. But, they will not send him home until one of two things happen. One...they diagnose what's causing it and can treat it. Two...the enzymes start going back down and get close to normal range. But, at least for now he is feeling better, so that's good. We are taking the positives anywhere we can find them right now!
We did have several visitors today, which definitely helped! But, I also had to leave him to go put up and decorate the Christmas tree with the kids. That did NOT help. I sent him pictures as we were doing it, and my mom filmed the whole thing. But, when I got back and he watched the video, it only made him want to be home that much more. It was pretty hard doing without him, too. Blake kept saying, "I wish Daddy was here." It just wasn't the same without him. It's the first time in 13 years we haven't done the tree together. I'm really glad I got to go home and do it with the kids, so I am grateful for that. But, I'm not gonna lie, it sucked having to do it without Matt.
Right now, I am focusing on keeping a positive outlook on all of this. I am still praying that he willl be home for Christmas. But, like I told Blake when he asked me tonight, if Daddy isn't home by Christmas, then we will take Christmas to him! We will NOT do Christmas without Daddy. It may not be ideal, but we will make the best of it! I am clinging to the positive things as they come, and giving God the rest. I did crater some this weekend, but I am regaining my strength and refocusing on letting God do my worrying for me, especially as we start week 3 in the hospital.
Again, I am asking for your prayers. If you've been keeping up with these daily updates, and I know most of you have been, you already know what to pray for. I'm not being specific today. Just please pray! Prayers our my/our lifeline right now! One of my life mottos has always been, "Fear is the absence of faith." That has never been more applicable to any situation in my life than this moment in time right now. ♥
Overall, he is feeling OK. A lot of his initial symptoms are starting to either go away or at least become tolerable. But, they will not send him home until one of two things happen. One...they diagnose what's causing it and can treat it. Two...the enzymes start going back down and get close to normal range. But, at least for now he is feeling better, so that's good. We are taking the positives anywhere we can find them right now!
We did have several visitors today, which definitely helped! But, I also had to leave him to go put up and decorate the Christmas tree with the kids. That did NOT help. I sent him pictures as we were doing it, and my mom filmed the whole thing. But, when I got back and he watched the video, it only made him want to be home that much more. It was pretty hard doing without him, too. Blake kept saying, "I wish Daddy was here." It just wasn't the same without him. It's the first time in 13 years we haven't done the tree together. I'm really glad I got to go home and do it with the kids, so I am grateful for that. But, I'm not gonna lie, it sucked having to do it without Matt.
Right now, I am focusing on keeping a positive outlook on all of this. I am still praying that he willl be home for Christmas. But, like I told Blake when he asked me tonight, if Daddy isn't home by Christmas, then we will take Christmas to him! We will NOT do Christmas without Daddy. It may not be ideal, but we will make the best of it! I am clinging to the positive things as they come, and giving God the rest. I did crater some this weekend, but I am regaining my strength and refocusing on letting God do my worrying for me, especially as we start week 3 in the hospital.
Again, I am asking for your prayers. If you've been keeping up with these daily updates, and I know most of you have been, you already know what to pray for. I'm not being specific today. Just please pray! Prayers our my/our lifeline right now! One of my life mottos has always been, "Fear is the absence of faith." That has never been more applicable to any situation in my life than this moment in time right now. ♥
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