Do you ever feel completely and totally invisible? Well...OK...maybe not TOTALLY invisible, but just like the people around you don't truly see you? I know I do sometimes! Especially as a wife and a mom of three very busy kids! Sometimes it just feels like I get shoved into the role of being Mommy, and the person that is Stephanie gets lost somewhere in the shuffle. It can be caused by a million different things...our daily schedule gets too busy, the kids are especially needy, new jobs and new demands place our focus elsewhere, health issues move to the forefront, financial worries take over our converstaions...Well, that covers a few of the million!
I've really been feeling like this lately. For about the last two weeks, I have felt like all I do is go through the motions of taking care of everyone else around me and catering to their needs all day long. And, the really stupid thing is, I think I'm feeling this way for completely selfish reasons. I mean, moms and wives are supposed to be the constant caregivers, right? That's what we do! I don't ever remember telling my mom to go realx while I did the dishes or the laundry, and I surely never spent my days getting things for her, making meals for her, or taking her where she needed to go! But, nevertheless, I still get in these moods every once in awhile...
The good news is that, this time, I've been dealing with it much better. Even though I can feel overworked and under appreciated, I just keep reminding myself of what I'm really here for. I'm not here to gain the approval of those around me. I don't love and care for my family just to get something out of them in return. I take care of them like I do because I love them all SO much! And, I live my life each day to gain the approval (hopefully) of God. Even when I feel like those around me aren't really seeing me at all, I know He is. That's what keeps me going. That's what drives me to be positive in every situation. That's what keeps me praising Him in every situation!
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. ~2 Corinthians 4: 16-18
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